Happy Birthday Daddy! I miss you so much. I know that you are celebrating in Heaven, but I'm selfish and wish that you were still here. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I wonder what would be making you laugh, what you would be aggravating me about, and how you would be spoiling Cora Jane. I feel you close to me often and I cherish the sweet memories. I pray every night that Cora Jane sees you in her dreams. She loves to look at the book I made of you. I wish you were here to celebrate Cody's wedding. I feel so guilty that you where here for my wedding, but not his! I wish that we were going to eat at Lloyd's or 0utback tonight for dinner. It is the simplest things that I miss! I love you daddy!
Tonight was hard...why? Most days it doesn't drag me down, but tonight I broke down in tears at Ch!ck-fi-la. We had K!ndermusik just like we do every Thursday night, but tonight Katie (Mallie's sweet mom) brought, whom I think was, her dad to class to watch Mallie. I couldn't help but noticing how he watched his precious granddaughter and his eyes were filled with such joy when she laughed. My heart hurts so bad because it is so hard for me to fathom that my daddy will not get to see Cora Jane on this side of Heaven. I know he would have loved to have gone to watch Cora Jane if I had asked him to. I can hear him laughing at her because she likes to dance in the middle of the circle during the hello song. Then we get to Ch!ck-fi-la to eat dinner like we do every Thursday and this older dad walked by and just smiled at Cora Jane for being silly. I lost it! It hasn't helped that Cora Jane loves to play with my hair. It brought back such fond memories, because I loved to play with my daddy's hair, including berets. I wanted so badly for my daddy to spoil his granddaughter tens times more than he spoiled me (and I was one spoiled daddy's girl.) I try not to ask why, but tonight on the way home I did ask why. I don't want to question the Good Lord, but I need His comfort. I pray every night that Cora Jane sees her Pop in her dreams. Daddy how I miss you!
I have failed terribly at blogging these days. Between keeping up with my little girl, school work, and all the momma/wifely duties, oh and SLEEP,there isn't much time for blogging. I do want to do better at keeping up with the fun things with Cora Jane. So, this was our Saturday. Cora Jane has been fighting a cold and cutting teeth the past couple of days and last night she was so fussy. To make matters even worse we didn't have any water so she didn't get a bath. That was the first time since she came home from the hospital that she hadn't had a bath before bedtime. I don't think she cared because she didn't even want me to read her bedtime books (not like her at all.) She was reaching for the bed and slept well. She woke up really early and was a bit whiny. I put her down for a nap at 8:30 and that sweet girl slept until 12:15. She woke up in the best mood. We went to the grocery store and then came home to play. She played by herself while I put up groceries, worked on a meal, and worked on two P!nterest projects. She destroyed the living room with her stuff (nothing unusual though.) She helped me do some laundry. I decided that I was going to give her some crayons to color with. I put her in her highchair and we "colored" together. It was so cute because she held the crayons upside down. I had to help her put pressure on the crayon, but we had fun together. After I unbuckled her she stood up in the chair and had the crayon in her hand reaching to write on the wall. I quickly caught her. I put her down and thought I had all the crayons, but C found one in her seat. Before I could get it away from her she made two marks on the wall. I know this is just the beginning. It was a "first" for us! This evening we ate dinner at the Cofers'. She had the best time taking all the toys out of the "football" and letting everyone spoil her! I've enjoyed my day with my girl!